This morning

I did not sleep well this morning. A lot of things buzzing around in my head. And as I sit here trying to think of how to explain what those things are...I find myself with a lack of words...

Its funny how we want to be heard, how we want to be validated, but we don't know how to express it. One of my problems is feeling like I'm an unique individual. All of the places I have lived, all of the experiences I've had, and all of the things I've done and accomplished seem unique...but not really.

There are people who have lived all around the world...There are people that have had much bigger and better and whatever experiences that I never had...My accomplishments...well, are not all that great...

It has left me feeling unimportant and unwanted. Very humbling. But that is me giving up. And of all of the qualities that I hate about people, there is one I absolutely love; the ability to continue despite of great odds. I believe it is a survival trait from the days of us being monkeys in trees. We need to have the audacity to carry on regardless of the odds being against us. This is much easier said than done. Simple solutions. However, if the earthquake in Haiti reminds us of anything, it is how people will come together to help each other out.

So I am going to put my feelings of inadequacy aside and try to help out. My goal is to spend the next few weeks down at the homeless dining room trying to help.

"The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others." - Ghandi

I hope that maybe other people will join me and find a cause that helps our fellow man out.


This is a picture I took of a man pushing a shopping cart full of cans and bottles.