Interviewing

I’m interviewing for my manager’s job today. I am really nervous. Really, really nervous. I don’t know what more I could do to prepare, so at least I have that feeling as well. I have so many mixed feelings about this. I know that becoming the manager will mean a lot of stress. It’ll probably mean longer hours for a while so I can adjust to all the new responsibilities while keeping up my workload. We’re short an analyst right now, so we are all really busy. If I got the job, we’d have to hire an analyst and I’d also have to tackle the challenge of training a new employee.

I desperately want the job, though. It’ll be such an exciting challenge! I think I could really do a good job as the manager. And now I have such high hopes and such competitive feelings about it that I would be devastated to not get the job. I’d get over the pain rather quickly, though, if it truly was a more qualified person. What I fear is that they won’t like any of the candidates and will keep looking for a manager. That would hurt a lot.

Either way, the interview is today. I’m feeling confident right now. I’m overwhelmed with nervous excitement – but that’s a good thing. What has kept me going and helped me so much during this has been Tim’s love and support for me. (And no, I’m not just saying that because he reads this blog.) Through my nervousness and my self-doubt, he has constantly reminded me how great he thinks I am. Just now, I got an email from him reminding me why he thinks I’ll do a great job at both the interview and as a manager. It was exactly what I needed right now. But the best part of it? He said this:

“Go for it. You can move mountains kid.”

And I cried. I’m so lucky to have him with everything he does for me. I’m going to go in there and validate all those wonderful things he said about me. I’m going to take on this mountain, whatever the outcome.